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Friday, March 20, 2009, @ 8:58 AM
indeed, i have to say again. I am STUPID. maybe i should have appeal to go JC. In that case i will use stress to counter emotions. lols If i am in JC now, maybe i will feel stress but at least i won't feel sad. Rather i will be happy for being stress up. okay, my wire is a little lose. lols
These few days have been thinking alot. I relise that i am such a failure in life man. So many regrets. If i had managed those situations well, i won't feel so miserable now. Again, i regreted again. i am so damn screwed up.
2 things that made me feel screwed up.
ONE, is regrading my previous post. maybe is because i typed out what i feel, feel much better already. of course, i still need take time to heal my wound. like i said in my previous post, if i ever ask him that question, i am sure that his answer will still be a "SORRY". So my only option is to FORGET abt him. but say is easier than doing it. I need time. i guess i will be able to overcome come it. =x
TWO, is regrading my 2nd previous post (part of it). I can see that u haev read my post. AGAIN, i regret posting it. (i am such a ass). If i did not post it out, u won't know how i feel, then u won't so bad. Like that both of us won't feel so miserable. and maybe as time goes i will even forget about how i felt at that moment. Then we are still kpop kakis once again, insane over SUJU and DBSK. Because of my idiotic wrong move, i now have no idea if i would lose my very best friend. =( my english sucks, so i dun have a wide vocab. maybe i should not have use the word "betrayed". U did call me to concentrate on tutoring my friend, so i plan to go out with u the following week, which was after the March Holidays. but u ps-ed me. At that moment i was indeed angry with u. Quite pissed in fact. however after a while i wasn't anymore. I told myself that this time never go according to plan nevermind, next time still got chance. Now i am feeling : "will there be this chance?" - it is like u see, the situation become so bad. i dun know if i will lose u this friend. I have this feeling that even if we go out the next time, we won't talk much, won't be so crazy over kpop and stuff. i really wish that this never happen before. i want the two crazy girls back. Will this even happen?
I bet u also have read about my previous post already right, that's why u also commented about it in ur blog. i was sad over him. i need friends at that very moment. but u need not feel bad that u wasn't there for me alrights? everybody wasn't there for me anyways. maybe it is a good thing, i can have a time to be alone, to think straight. SEE, i now trying my best to forget about him. So u should be happy for me. =) i remembered that u ask me what happen to me before (which was all abt that guy). I actually didn't wanted to tell u as i thought since it was over, no point bringing it up. i didn't know u feel so good after me telling u abt it, being my listening ear. I guess in all these problems, i only did one right thing. lols
I hope that all this are over already. i also want to keep this friendship of ours going on. can we, MRS KIM? =)
regrading ur post, i feel that u dun suck as a friend. frankly speaking u was the last time (please dun mind =x), due to ur attitude. But i can see that ur attitude change. i hope u still remember ur so-call "motto" - [u happy jiu hao].
i just think that i should say this 3words to u, "I AM SORRY"
I feel like cursing. HAHAS but will i even feel better??? lols.
i am going out later with Ler, Jewell and Celestine.
maybe i will be preoccupied and won't think abt all those.
i hope that all those are just nightmares,
that all those didn't happen at all,
that i will forget them all real soon...
my bottled up thoughts ♥
@ 8:58 AM
@ 8:58 AM